Thank God it is Friday at last...

What a week...

First we signed and completed the Schoening Family Living Trust. What a sense of relief. We do not have much at all but having this done also includes the Trust, the will, financial and health care power of attorney, HIPAA, personal assignment and most importantly to us is guardianship of Emma. We were always concerned about where she would go and now we know as do her potential guardians and trustees (Love you Uncle Rob/Diana and hopefully this will never come to pass). And if you have a child under eighteen years old, think about having this done (and know it is okay to name non family members as guardians and trustees).

We saw Clark's oncologist. Chester is still there but is slowly being diminished with each treatment-God willing.

Clark had the power port installed. This will help with chemo treatments and did today.

Side note to the power port installation. I am reading this book called "Out of Captivity-Surviving 1,967 days in the Colombian Jungle" by Marc Gonsalves, Keith Stansell and Tom Howes (story of three American cilivian contractors whose plane went down in the Colombia jungle and they were taken captive by FARC guerrilla soldiers) and I said to Clark "you know Honey if you had been on that plane and one of the FARC soldiers had seen the power port they would have shot you on the spot because they would have thought you had a GPS unit embedded in you." Needless to say Clark will not be taking any plane trips to Columbia until the power port is removed.

Clark's chemo went very well. We have laughed how last time at chemo the health care benefits were terminated. I was the wife who told her husband who was on the chemo drip, " Really you DID not pay the health care benefits, REALLY?" Clark said I would be that wife who would do that and my response was "Well you are not dead. You just have cancer." We have laughed over this several times. I am not a good enabler and Clark knows this. I understand that Clark is very sick but his medical team has stressed that "babying him" will actually inhibit his treatment since getting well is part of living and not "checking out." "Checking out" could mean death in a stage 4 cancer like Clark's.

In fact today we saw death knocking at a fellow chemo patient's door. She had chemo yesterday and then her fever rose to 102 degrees (which is very bad for chemo patients but she "checked out" and did not notify her medical team). So she came in today and collapsed in a chair. The medical crew literally rolled her from the chemo clinic to the hospital in fear she was going to "crash". I pray that this is never Clark. It was heart wrenching to see.

Enabling him, I will not do. Letting him "check out" will not happen on my watch. BUT I will love him and care for him as a wife should. And really Thank God it is Friday at last...